young hearts be free tonight

he once said...

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you're worth the midnight trip

chemistry

im not fantasizing.

i don't do that...

crystalised

And you just keep on getting closer (When you're the one that I've kept closest)

Go slow

sometimes, I still need you

her eyes, they shine so clear.

lets fucking go

kick and push

one false move

heart skipped a beat

if i could only see you like this again. happy. reasonable. settled.

no smoking

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shes even good with my animals

listen to this

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i could stay here, become someone different

the view photoshoot.

now the sky is turning blue

maggots in the eye of love

light my candles in a daze

you need me like a bad habit

*really though
*something about you
*i just know it

what's it gonna be.

Let's not talk about it
We never did so why start now
Let's just go back to your place
And not talk about it there
I was thinking, we should sleep in separate beds
but the heat's gone to my head
Let's get tired at the same time (tonight)

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today the wind blew harder than usual.
the leaves fell off the trees and gracefully landed on the ground.
a few landed in my hair as well.
"i like the look of the houses in the fall" she said.
they're so dull, so aged, so broken down.. yet so fucking beautiful.
just like your face.
have i ever told you that? no. i really havent.
but you can read this and wonder if its for you, or for another dearly beloved.
or if i actually ment that your face is so aged, dull and broken down.
i will leave that for you to guess at.

to weird to live, to rare to die

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you're snoring right now

don't read this

the smell of you lingers on my clothes now

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i dressed myself nice today, but you never came. I put my make up on more perfectly than any other day, i even ironed my clothes. No creases at all, i know how much you hate them. My hair was faultless. My shoes were blameless. But, my eyes were dull.

you never showed.

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i dare you, look into my eyes and dare me.

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" You. I'm crazy for you. I was just half sleeping and you were in my dream "

please dont think that this was easy

This is to a girl
who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did.
This is to a girl
who got into my head
with all these fucked up things i did.

i've always been there.

boats and birds

i'm breathing her words, shes loosing her patience. our hands use to be intertwined, and our hearts use to be inlove, but simple words and simple feelings can change your world. I use to be so fallen into you, but life has its glitches. You are still here, your ghost lingers my room. my enternity. I've thought about you every day since. My feet are cold and i just remember how you would have done something about that. You have learned to make me feel confident, act confident and be confident. My heart still feels for you, you are what i need, but you are not what i can have. It's okay, you are perfect. I get tense and stressed when i think about seeing you, although your face is probably the most perfect sight ever known. I take a sip of my tea, relax and think of you. In my place, i was lost.. but i thought of you and dreams became reality. I'll strive for you. Forever. Dream of me, Remember me.

the perfect became the imperfection

but thats okay, because everything happens for a reason. Things will work out, you just have to go with what may come. Our lives are perfect, and we are not together. Nothing survives, but you and i always will. Secretly together.

my head use to be all there, but with your absence, it's in space. i am displaced.

up all day, got demonds to fight.

she won't know

'Cause you're so good at talking smack, you heart attack
But you're the apple of my eye anyway '

My smiling face
That's on my head
it's on a silver plate

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i cant even look at myself in the mirror really, so i wouldnt be suprised if you could. I'm a real fuck up.. it's nothing i can change really. i change my mind regularly and i don't ever know what i truly want. i can't be loyal. god knows why. It's not you. It's the way i've been taught. I'm sad. I'm a wreck, and when it comes down to it.. i have a perfect life. With the perfect family.. perfect friends and all that jazz. But my mind, you see it's not all there. Not clear at all. I dont know. I can't even put my feelings into words because it's not all there. I havent cried in about 10 months.. maybe here and there for the stupid reasons. i can't cry anymore. i have nothing left to cry.

don't read this

See this winged boy falling
Falling out of something
Hits the drug I'm needing

Arrows that he's turning
Need to keep this feeling
Slow drug in the morning

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I "end conversation" on my phone everytime i say something to you so i won't be tempted to keep writting and telling you things. Also, i don't want to know if you've read it or if your going to reply.

don't read this

It's real

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- "you drive me nuts"

- "is that okay?"

don't read this

two different people, in two different worlds.

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i've lost most of my creativity and words.

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4 hours ago i wrote a whole paragraph about how much i hated you and how much you fucked me over.. i came home to it on my screen and accidently deleted it. i guess it wasnt that important. I hate you anyways, and you screwed my life over. You're someone you said you would never be. Go fuck yourself you asshole. You lied to me, you cheated me and most of all you disrespected your own fucking daughter. FUCK YOU


- im drunk and i've never hated you this much

don't read this

"you just have to see her"

don't read this

my hands are shaking, my body is quivering.. your eyes are locked on mine.

" it's fall. idk, do ppl fall in love in the fall? "

don`t read this

Be careful of the curse that falls on young lovers
Starts so soft and sweet and turns them to hunters

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i've lost myself in you; the way you'll lose yourself in me.

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i can make your heart beat short.
i can be the source you crave.
chocolate flavor love theme,
treat the treats you so mean .

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My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I’ll be floatin on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare

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i miss your kisses

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"freezing out here! where a jacket"
"i can't get over how cold it is right now"
"i know, winter is coming"
"it's so pretty but i hate how cold it gets"
"Fall is my favorite season so thats exciting that its next week"
"Me to, the trees are so pretty"
"Yes, and the sound of the leaves onthe ground"
"yes, and the smell"

don't read this

I used to wanna feel your summer sweat
seeping right into my eyes
I used to wanna feel your body quake when I sink my teeth into your thighs
Not even Hell could be hotter than you right now

don't read this

My head is lead, I don't ever wanna go to bed.
Your hair is on fire.
You snuff the blaze, turn to vapor then you float away.
We got into a bad fight.

Laid her on the bed.

don't read this

you're wasting time we might just have.

stop doing the right thing all the time.

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The other day i recived an apology letter from a girl i use to like. She mentioned how she was sorry she couldn't be a better friend. It just sucks cause i could have liked her so much and treated her so well, but if he makes her happy - than good for the both of them, it's an amazing thing.

Less than 5 days and a part of me is loosing it. A part of me is excited to see what happens when we're harly close to each other and what we could make of it. The fall will be good though. The smell, and the oranges and the greens and yellows and the pumpkins. Especially the pumpkins. Reviewing my summer, i wouldn't regret a thing i did. Not a minute i spent would i regret. Everything happen for the best and it was a relief. Let loose. Let your real side out because really, you are only young once. Do what you've always wanted to. Do what you always wished to do. Dream of me.

School is pretty much here, this is there life snaps back into action. "Think serious now.. you can't get anywhere in life if you rock and roll forever kid." Don't you wish.

Wishing shouldnt even be fucking legal. What is a wish even? Like.. you really don't get the actual wish. Or do you? Does yout heart just pretend it doesnt even happen. Does your brain manipulate itself into thinking the wish didnt even come true. What the fuck right?

So what, i actually like the sight of two girls making out. Don't lie and tell me it disturbs you because thats a filthy fucking lie you bitch. It's not about the fact that it's two woman. Think about how pure the sight of that is. It's innocent and formal. SO real. More real than an abusive boyfriend. Just saying though.

Im rambling, im high, im motivated, im drinking tea. It's a lovely early wednesday morning. I knew the thoughts came out after 1am. And for once, im not blogging about your selfish face and amazing bitchy personality.

don't read this

your choice won't affect me, i'll just sit and watch you live your life.

don't read this

i take a breath, take a breath
with me blow by blow
take a break, take a break from you
you are here to stay
i take my heart out of my chest
i just don't need it anymore
take my hand up again
i just don't need it anymore

don't read this

You could be my someone, you could be my scene. You know that i'll protect you from all of the obscene. I wonder what you're doing, imagine where you are. There's oceans in between us, but that's not very far.






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stop lying and stop playing games. thanks.

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She's trying not to see you as her worst mistake
And I wish that I could tell you right now, I love you
But it looks like I won't be around
So you won't know...

don't read this

don't read this

i don't know what to write in here anymore.

Careful now, You're so beautiful
When you've convinced yourself
That no one else is quite as beautiful
Hold it now, You've got everyone convinced that your alright
When no one else is quite as vulnerable

don't read this.

don't read this

don't read this

She used to be the sweetest girl ever 
Now she like sour ameretta 
She wears a dress to the T like the letter 
And if you make it rain she will be under the weather 

don't read this

8:08 am Sunday, August 16 2009.
man, i was actually happy to talk to you again, at least having you there as a friend but fuck that. I hate you so bad man. Like whatever, i dont want to talk with you anymore. It's just hurting me and i can't stand that anymore. So, this is it for me, atleast for a good while. Have a good life kaylaa. Someone will pick up my stuff from your house.

i had to think a little..

8:15 am Sunday, August 16 2009
why do you hate me...

8:18 am Sunday, August 16 2009
Couldn't you figure that out yourself?


"Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone that could save
If they don't put me away
It’ll be a miracle"

read this

You could tell me a million and one times that you hated my guts for no specific reason and i would always respond with an i love you You are my bestfriend and no other person could replace your spot.

don't read this

You would never understand the pain i went through to get over you.
You would never understand the pain i went though being with you.
You would never understand the pain i went though trying not to think about you
You would never understand the pain i went though listening to all the songs that remind me of you.
You would never understand the pain i went though getting your texts and having to delete them so i didnt reply back.
You would never understand the pain i went though telling everyone that we would never speak or see each other anytime soon.
You would never understand the pain i went though thinking you have another girl to love and to replace my spot.
You would never understand the pain i went though looking at our pictures remembering how inlove we actually were.
You would never understand the pain i went though looking at your stupid fucking bitch ass photos.
You would never understand the pain i went though when i watched you fuck me over, right infront of my eyes.
You would never understand the pain i went though getting the text you ment to send to your "new girl"
You would never understand the pain i went though when you would just get out of bed right after we shared a really good couple hours together and get dressed and leave.
You would never understand the pain i went though realizing you fucked with my head the whole time.
You would just never understand the pain i went though.

Have I found you Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you

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Your so jaded, and i'm the one that jaded you.

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Please momma cant you see, I’ve always tried to please
I wore ribbons and jewelry and make up and perfume and dresses down to my knees
You said that it's a phase, just something I’d out grow
But I got a girlfriend and she's got a lawn that I’d sure like to mow.

read this

let your ears do the listening and your body do the work.
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wild nights with wild people. Get Trashy.

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i almost feel like every night after 1am, is the greatest time and inspiration i have.
I probably wouldn't feel so high if i didn't consume more than 0% alcohol.
- i wish my age wasn't that much of a matter.
the way you talk about it kills my vibe of you, i hate you when you do it and i think of you as less of a person. You would never know my age if you never asked. I'm a smart person, to smart for my age almost. Get the fuck over it.
-i wish i knew more people worth my time.
i don't believe half of you fucking fake people in this world. You lie to get what you want. I'm sorry but i've made it in life so far with less lies than you've told in your life. Why do you lie? Do you benifit your reputation by doing that. Do you better yourself with your lies. You make no fucking sense to me. Be yourself, do whatever the fuck you want and stop following in everyones foot steps.

The way you talk is so fascinating, and the way you walk is so inviting. It really blows that you have to be such a nutcase. Your annoying with the things you say and everything is so repetative. I don't know how much i actually enjoy anything about you.

Maybe i'm to high to think highly of you. Your weird. It's attractive in the strangest way. I shouldn't have met you.

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your intriguing face captivated me.

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I've made mistakes and one of them was choosing her over you.

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I hated it so much when you made those stupid noises. I hated it so much when you would grab my face and do that stupid baby talk, i hated when you would act shy when there was no reason, i hated when you would make weird faces at me, i hated when you would make videos for me and i couldn't say thank you in real life cause you were so far, i hated when you would go out and i couldn't talk to you cause your a loser and never bought a cell phone, i hated when you would tell me your stupid jokes, cause really.. they were not even funny, i hated when you would make me laugh when i was trying so hard to be so mad at you. I hated when you would listen to your hardcore music cause i liked that you would get so into it. You would figure i hate you. But, when i think back to the most memerable times and happiest times, they were with you. Don't kill it, i loved you.

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Your swagger and intelligence combined is my secret weakness.

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Did i ever really mention how much i actually love the shape of your body? The way your night dress falls down the curves of you and lightly flows in the wind at night. How when you walk it sways and it's the only thing my mind can focus on. If i could have one wish, id wish to wake up to your pretty smile every morning. To look into those glistening eyes and tell you, you look amazing no matter what hour of day it is. You'd laugh and tell me you looked like shit, but i'd laugh and disagree. That would be okay i guess.

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I've been up most of the night thinking about stupid shit that no one really cares about.
I think i've found myself doing this quite often lately actually. None the less it does help me out in the morning when i wake up and realize i feel a lot better that i thought about all of it last night and not the minute i wake up. I wonder why my mom only really seems happy with what she can't have? Knowing that your getting older.. you would think she would settle for what you have if it seems to be the "greatest things"

Do you really fear what you love? Does that come naturally in your everyday life or do you gain the fear? Do you gain the fear of loving someone so much that you can't handle it any longer? Is fear really in the heart of love? You tell me. You fear what you want, you fear what you don't like. Your body can only handle so much in its span, so it has to fear. Some fear spiders. Some fear thunderstorms. Some fear animals. Some fear hurting. Some fear disease. Some fear dying. Some fear truth. Some fear lies. I fear love.

I use to write so much, so much about my love for the one i use to love. The minute i would put that pen to the paper, my hand would go to work. It would work so hard and so fast to get all these feelings i was feeling. I use to feel so much, mostly love and the feeling of being loved. It was amazing and i would never forget about it. Love falls apart, and there is nothing you can do about it when it falls. My momma always told me "You never realize what you have until its gone". I believe in that, not only because my wonderful woman of a mother told me this but because i was smart enough to realize she knew what it was like to hurt.

Hurt. What does it mean to hurt? When you fall.. you "hurt" but is that a aching pain or is it a throbbing pain? Or, is there even a difference in what kinds of hurt you can experience? It all come in a matter of time. You WILL hurt once or twice in your life. Just remember life goes on and you should never settle for less. You are a smart person and very beautiful. Don't let anyone tell you differently.

don't read this

Does your mom always talk to your friends like that?

i told you i wasn't lying

It's like Everytime the wind blows it whispers your name, and i get these chills that never fade.












The sun is your destination; you are the unwanted that is now wanted.

Is it the drugs, or is it your mind?

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please, take control

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underestimated and fragile

how strange, innocence

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trapped and locked away

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dismember me

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night destruction

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it lies within

look past those glowing eyes and look straight to her heart.

innocense is honor

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rough mornings

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strength and freshness

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keep me safe

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wish you were here

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just breathe

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on coming ' traffic '

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the future could hold our love

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herd but not seen

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falling apart

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don't let go

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