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your choice won't affect me, i'll just sit and watch you live your life.

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i take a breath, take a breath
with me blow by blow
take a break, take a break from you
you are here to stay
i take my heart out of my chest
i just don't need it anymore
take my hand up again
i just don't need it anymore

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You could be my someone, you could be my scene. You know that i'll protect you from all of the obscene. I wonder what you're doing, imagine where you are. There's oceans in between us, but that's not very far.






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stop lying and stop playing games. thanks.

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She's trying not to see you as her worst mistake
And I wish that I could tell you right now, I love you
But it looks like I won't be around
So you won't know...

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i don't know what to write in here anymore.

Careful now, You're so beautiful
When you've convinced yourself
That no one else is quite as beautiful
Hold it now, You've got everyone convinced that your alright
When no one else is quite as vulnerable

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She used to be the sweetest girl ever 
Now she like sour ameretta 
She wears a dress to the T like the letter 
And if you make it rain she will be under the weather 

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8:08 am Sunday, August 16 2009.
man, i was actually happy to talk to you again, at least having you there as a friend but fuck that. I hate you so bad man. Like whatever, i dont want to talk with you anymore. It's just hurting me and i can't stand that anymore. So, this is it for me, atleast for a good while. Have a good life kaylaa. Someone will pick up my stuff from your house.

i had to think a little..

8:15 am Sunday, August 16 2009
why do you hate me...

8:18 am Sunday, August 16 2009
Couldn't you figure that out yourself?


"Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone that could save
If they don't put me away
It’ll be a miracle"

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You could tell me a million and one times that you hated my guts for no specific reason and i would always respond with an i love you You are my bestfriend and no other person could replace your spot.

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You would never understand the pain i went through to get over you.
You would never understand the pain i went though being with you.
You would never understand the pain i went though trying not to think about you
You would never understand the pain i went though listening to all the songs that remind me of you.
You would never understand the pain i went though getting your texts and having to delete them so i didnt reply back.
You would never understand the pain i went though telling everyone that we would never speak or see each other anytime soon.
You would never understand the pain i went though thinking you have another girl to love and to replace my spot.
You would never understand the pain i went though looking at our pictures remembering how inlove we actually were.
You would never understand the pain i went though looking at your stupid fucking bitch ass photos.
You would never understand the pain i went though when i watched you fuck me over, right infront of my eyes.
You would never understand the pain i went though getting the text you ment to send to your "new girl"
You would never understand the pain i went though when you would just get out of bed right after we shared a really good couple hours together and get dressed and leave.
You would never understand the pain i went though realizing you fucked with my head the whole time.
You would just never understand the pain i went though.

Have I found you Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you

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Your so jaded, and i'm the one that jaded you.

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Please momma cant you see, I’ve always tried to please
I wore ribbons and jewelry and make up and perfume and dresses down to my knees
You said that it's a phase, just something I’d out grow
But I got a girlfriend and she's got a lawn that I’d sure like to mow.

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let your ears do the listening and your body do the work.
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wild nights with wild people. Get Trashy.

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i almost feel like every night after 1am, is the greatest time and inspiration i have.
I probably wouldn't feel so high if i didn't consume more than 0% alcohol.
- i wish my age wasn't that much of a matter.
the way you talk about it kills my vibe of you, i hate you when you do it and i think of you as less of a person. You would never know my age if you never asked. I'm a smart person, to smart for my age almost. Get the fuck over it.
-i wish i knew more people worth my time.
i don't believe half of you fucking fake people in this world. You lie to get what you want. I'm sorry but i've made it in life so far with less lies than you've told in your life. Why do you lie? Do you benifit your reputation by doing that. Do you better yourself with your lies. You make no fucking sense to me. Be yourself, do whatever the fuck you want and stop following in everyones foot steps.

The way you talk is so fascinating, and the way you walk is so inviting. It really blows that you have to be such a nutcase. Your annoying with the things you say and everything is so repetative. I don't know how much i actually enjoy anything about you.

Maybe i'm to high to think highly of you. Your weird. It's attractive in the strangest way. I shouldn't have met you.

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your intriguing face captivated me.

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I've made mistakes and one of them was choosing her over you.

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I hated it so much when you made those stupid noises. I hated it so much when you would grab my face and do that stupid baby talk, i hated when you would act shy when there was no reason, i hated when you would make weird faces at me, i hated when you would make videos for me and i couldn't say thank you in real life cause you were so far, i hated when you would go out and i couldn't talk to you cause your a loser and never bought a cell phone, i hated when you would tell me your stupid jokes, cause really.. they were not even funny, i hated when you would make me laugh when i was trying so hard to be so mad at you. I hated when you would listen to your hardcore music cause i liked that you would get so into it. You would figure i hate you. But, when i think back to the most memerable times and happiest times, they were with you. Don't kill it, i loved you.

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Your swagger and intelligence combined is my secret weakness.

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Did i ever really mention how much i actually love the shape of your body? The way your night dress falls down the curves of you and lightly flows in the wind at night. How when you walk it sways and it's the only thing my mind can focus on. If i could have one wish, id wish to wake up to your pretty smile every morning. To look into those glistening eyes and tell you, you look amazing no matter what hour of day it is. You'd laugh and tell me you looked like shit, but i'd laugh and disagree. That would be okay i guess.

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I've been up most of the night thinking about stupid shit that no one really cares about.
I think i've found myself doing this quite often lately actually. None the less it does help me out in the morning when i wake up and realize i feel a lot better that i thought about all of it last night and not the minute i wake up. I wonder why my mom only really seems happy with what she can't have? Knowing that your getting older.. you would think she would settle for what you have if it seems to be the "greatest things"

Do you really fear what you love? Does that come naturally in your everyday life or do you gain the fear? Do you gain the fear of loving someone so much that you can't handle it any longer? Is fear really in the heart of love? You tell me. You fear what you want, you fear what you don't like. Your body can only handle so much in its span, so it has to fear. Some fear spiders. Some fear thunderstorms. Some fear animals. Some fear hurting. Some fear disease. Some fear dying. Some fear truth. Some fear lies. I fear love.

I use to write so much, so much about my love for the one i use to love. The minute i would put that pen to the paper, my hand would go to work. It would work so hard and so fast to get all these feelings i was feeling. I use to feel so much, mostly love and the feeling of being loved. It was amazing and i would never forget about it. Love falls apart, and there is nothing you can do about it when it falls. My momma always told me "You never realize what you have until its gone". I believe in that, not only because my wonderful woman of a mother told me this but because i was smart enough to realize she knew what it was like to hurt.

Hurt. What does it mean to hurt? When you fall.. you "hurt" but is that a aching pain or is it a throbbing pain? Or, is there even a difference in what kinds of hurt you can experience? It all come in a matter of time. You WILL hurt once or twice in your life. Just remember life goes on and you should never settle for less. You are a smart person and very beautiful. Don't let anyone tell you differently.

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Does your mom always talk to your friends like that?

i told you i wasn't lying

It's like Everytime the wind blows it whispers your name, and i get these chills that never fade.












The sun is your destination; you are the unwanted that is now wanted.

Is it the drugs, or is it your mind?

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